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I got tagged. My friend Bunni89 tagged me and this seemed very interesting so I decided to go for it.
I started playing the guitar on october 2012 and it's something I quite enjoy. I like it so much that I've even written a few songs (I've got 6 now, I think). They're all worship and praise songs. Well, I just write the lyrics and the basic melody but I think it counts as songwriting, right?
My friends and I had a band back in 2009 and we played our own songs.
That's right! We had a 5 piece christian rock band called In Spirit. We had to put it on hiatus because I came to Lima and the keyboard player moved to Bogota, Colombia, but we might pick this project again once we all live in Quito again. We wrote our own songs, played 4 or 5 gigs, and even had an interview on the local radio. Lots of fun.
I feel very insecure about myself.
One of my biggest struggles is accepting myself the way I am. I always feel very self-aware of my own appearance and my personality. This has caused me many problems in the past, I think some of my friends would feel irritated by my insecurities and I know for a fact that my insecurity lead to jealousy in past my sentimental relationships. But I'm learning to accept and even love myself! Specially these days here in Lima. I know I have lots of flaws, but it'd be unfair to not accept that I also have many virtues!
I changed dramatically over the past five years.
When I was still in high-school, I was a very anti-social kid who'd spend all his days locked up at home and wouldn't go out except if there was an anime convention or something like that. I had no friends, I hated parties and I'd hang out alone most of the time. Seven years ago I joined a catholic group (I am a catholic myself) and I started getting along with the people there. Little by little I began hanging out with them, sometimes I'd attend parties they invited me to, they taught me how to dance... I don't consider myself a super-social kind of person, but I think I am more sociable nowadays, and of course this makes me feel better. It's good to have friends!
I want to get married and have one or two kids.
Yeah. That's right. I used to think marriage was not meant for me, and also that kids were a nuisance. But lately I've met many married couples and I've learned more about what it means to be married, and I think it's what I want in my life. Last year I met a couple who had a very small kid and, to my surprise, we both get along very well! This has made me think that, despite being hard work and sacrifice, having kids might be worth the effort. I know for a fact that I don't want more than two of 'em!
I'd love to work at home.
My dream-job would be as an illustrator, specially if I could work at home. I've already lived on my own a couple of times and I quite like taking care of my place, sweeping, cleaning up, cooking, etc, so I think it'd be nice to work at home and do all this stuff as well (even if it is quite tiresome!). It'd also be good if I had kids because I could also spend more time with them!
I've worked at many things on many different fields.
When I look back I often feel surprised about how many different jobs I've had: computer assistant, waiter, bar-tender, photographer, gardener (!), teacher, museum guide... It appears I'm suited for many jobs, go figure!
Most mornings, I can remember what I dreamed the night before.
This is something that I quite like: I mostly remember my dreams very clearly. My dreams are often some kind of comics or movie plot, altho they can also be personal things or surreal dreams that I don't understand (or even nightmares occasionally). My dreams often provide me with inspiration for writing new stories.
And my favorite dreams are the ones with cute girls (I'm a guy, don't blame me for it!) and the ones where I'm writing or have written a graphic novel.
One of my worst fears is going back to high-school.
High-school was the worst time of my life because it came along with depression, insecurities, suicidal thoughts, fights... I've had nightmares where I have to go back to high-school and it's something that quite scares me. I'm sure if I had to go back to high-school now (for whatever reason) I'd do much better, but I hope that doesn't happen!
I love new, blank notebooks.
This is something that probably happens to most artists, but still. I love new, blank notebooks; I love the smell of blank pages, the feel, the thought of all the things that I'm gonna draw and write there. When I studied arts in college, they'd give us a new notebook each semester, and I've got four or five of them that I haven't used because I like blank notebooks so much that I'm waiting for the right moment to use them.
Phew! That's it!
I think I'm going to tag some people for a change, I'm interested in reading their interesting facts, so I'll be tagging diana-hnd , redvandyke , Leezluntz , MayelV and suiatsea .
Also, hopefully I'll be posting new artwork here soon since, against all odds, I have a scanner!
See you guys soon.
- Write 10 interesting things about yourself.
- Tag 5 interesting people.
I started playing the guitar on october 2012 and it's something I quite enjoy. I like it so much that I've even written a few songs (I've got 6 now, I think). They're all worship and praise songs. Well, I just write the lyrics and the basic melody but I think it counts as songwriting, right?
My friends and I had a band back in 2009 and we played our own songs.
That's right! We had a 5 piece christian rock band called In Spirit. We had to put it on hiatus because I came to Lima and the keyboard player moved to Bogota, Colombia, but we might pick this project again once we all live in Quito again. We wrote our own songs, played 4 or 5 gigs, and even had an interview on the local radio. Lots of fun.
I feel very insecure about myself.
One of my biggest struggles is accepting myself the way I am. I always feel very self-aware of my own appearance and my personality. This has caused me many problems in the past, I think some of my friends would feel irritated by my insecurities and I know for a fact that my insecurity lead to jealousy in past my sentimental relationships. But I'm learning to accept and even love myself! Specially these days here in Lima. I know I have lots of flaws, but it'd be unfair to not accept that I also have many virtues!
I changed dramatically over the past five years.
When I was still in high-school, I was a very anti-social kid who'd spend all his days locked up at home and wouldn't go out except if there was an anime convention or something like that. I had no friends, I hated parties and I'd hang out alone most of the time. Seven years ago I joined a catholic group (I am a catholic myself) and I started getting along with the people there. Little by little I began hanging out with them, sometimes I'd attend parties they invited me to, they taught me how to dance... I don't consider myself a super-social kind of person, but I think I am more sociable nowadays, and of course this makes me feel better. It's good to have friends!
I want to get married and have one or two kids.
Yeah. That's right. I used to think marriage was not meant for me, and also that kids were a nuisance. But lately I've met many married couples and I've learned more about what it means to be married, and I think it's what I want in my life. Last year I met a couple who had a very small kid and, to my surprise, we both get along very well! This has made me think that, despite being hard work and sacrifice, having kids might be worth the effort. I know for a fact that I don't want more than two of 'em!
I'd love to work at home.
My dream-job would be as an illustrator, specially if I could work at home. I've already lived on my own a couple of times and I quite like taking care of my place, sweeping, cleaning up, cooking, etc, so I think it'd be nice to work at home and do all this stuff as well (even if it is quite tiresome!). It'd also be good if I had kids because I could also spend more time with them!
I've worked at many things on many different fields.
When I look back I often feel surprised about how many different jobs I've had: computer assistant, waiter, bar-tender, photographer, gardener (!), teacher, museum guide... It appears I'm suited for many jobs, go figure!
Most mornings, I can remember what I dreamed the night before.
This is something that I quite like: I mostly remember my dreams very clearly. My dreams are often some kind of comics or movie plot, altho they can also be personal things or surreal dreams that I don't understand (or even nightmares occasionally). My dreams often provide me with inspiration for writing new stories.
And my favorite dreams are the ones with cute girls (I'm a guy, don't blame me for it!) and the ones where I'm writing or have written a graphic novel.
One of my worst fears is going back to high-school.
High-school was the worst time of my life because it came along with depression, insecurities, suicidal thoughts, fights... I've had nightmares where I have to go back to high-school and it's something that quite scares me. I'm sure if I had to go back to high-school now (for whatever reason) I'd do much better, but I hope that doesn't happen!
I love new, blank notebooks.
This is something that probably happens to most artists, but still. I love new, blank notebooks; I love the smell of blank pages, the feel, the thought of all the things that I'm gonna draw and write there. When I studied arts in college, they'd give us a new notebook each semester, and I've got four or five of them that I haven't used because I like blank notebooks so much that I'm waiting for the right moment to use them.
Phew! That's it!
I think I'm going to tag some people for a change, I'm interested in reading their interesting facts, so I'll be tagging diana-hnd , redvandyke , Leezluntz , MayelV and suiatsea .
Also, hopefully I'll be posting new artwork here soon since, against all odds, I have a scanner!
See you guys soon.
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-Lima- A dream come true
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I'm very happy to be here. I just might write a small journal about it one of these days, if I have the time and feel like it.
Good luck to you all, and see you then
P.S.: I occasionally post a picture or two of some sketches I'm doing here (plus photos of my trips!) on my instagram account. Check it out!
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I've been tagged
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- I'd love to be Ruu Romango, the main character of my comic.
- I'm still learning what it means to be a christian.
- My favorite place to be is the historic center of my city.
- I learned the basics on how to play guitar in about two months on my own.
- I've written five songs.
- My beard grows very fast. Sometimes I shave up twice a day.
- I'm not good at dealing with babies, but I'd love to have kids someday.
- When I was younger, I'd never go to parties or hang out with friends. Nowadays I hang out with my friends at least twice a week and go to parties at least once a month.
- I love to dance. But I'm not good at it.
- I prefer to walk rather than take the bus (and I haven't taken driving lessons yet).
- When I'm walking somewhere I like to play my music and sing out loud.
- I wrote eleven facts.
Ten questions to ask:
Why made you want to draw/write?
I'm not sure. I've drawn and written for as long as I can remember. It might have had something to do with me reading a lot or having an overdeveloped imagination.
What's a place you'd like to visit?
Thailand, Japan, Korea, Spain, Poland, Finland, Mexico, Canada... Couldn't choose just one. 
What do you think is your best trait?
I'm always laughing and try to take things with a lot of patience.
If you want to be remembered for one thing, what would it be?
Well, I just want my friends to remember me, so I guess I'd like to be remembered for my friendship
Who is your favorite cartoon character?
Someone from Rurouni Kenshin, could be Makoto Shishio or Soujiro Seta...
If you could commit one crime and get away with it, what would it be? And don't say "I wouldn't commit one", that's just cheesy.
I'd like to steal from very rich people and give it to the poor. Or destroy one of those huge transnational enterprises...
If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
A dragon, probably.
What's your favorite book?
Northern Lights, by Phillip Pullman.
What world do you wish you could live in? It can be anime, video game, etc.
I'd like to live in the Ruu's Sword universe. Or the 19th century, or a steampunk world...
What are you allergic to? So that I may know your weakness...yes...
So far, none! Lucky me! 
I'm not tagging anyone, but feel free to do this if you want to.
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A boy and his sword (part two)
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I started writing this comic back in 2006 when I was still in high-school, and in a way, it was a means of escape from a world that seemed like too much for me to handle. I would dream of running away and wandering endlessly across this country, and that's how I came up with the character of Ruu the dasher (who at first was simply called wandering boy).
My biggest influence back then was Nobuhiro Watsuki's Rurouni Kenshin, from whom I
Last year I started working on Guerra + Santa, a 50 pages long graphic novel that was part of my final university project, The creation process of a comic or graphic novel. But now that I've finished writing it, I'm working on Boy X Sword again. For now, I've decided to rename it Ruu's Sword.
This font is called Ruritania. Lovely, isn't it?
Like I mentioned on a previous journal, I'm trying to build up a more coherent plot. It's a hard task but I'm pleased with the way it's coming out.
There's a reason why, despite losing my motivation or not knowing how to move on, I'm still working on this story: Ruu's Sword is an extremely accurate description of the most important things in life. For me, Ruu's Sword is all about tradition versus progress. The swordsmen in this comic are facing the end of their careers now that guns are taking over. But they hang on to their ideals and their way of life. This romantic approach has captivated me and it's something that I can always relate to. That is the reason why this story is so important to me.
I hope this explanation will give the readers of my comic a new perspective and help them understand it better. When it's ready, that is.
Until then!
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Fight
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These past few days I've had to deal with something that I had almost forgotten about: depression. I've suffered from depression since I was around 12. When I was younger I had a much harder time dealing with it, and it often led me to self-destructive, suicidal thoughts. These past 5 years the fight had gotten easier, I would feel depressed less often and for shorter periods of time. Even my self-esteem was recovering and I would mostly feel very good.
Until this year came along. My first big crisis came from having my wisdom teeth removed. The pain I felt in the surgery was the most intense pain I've ever felt and it still shakes me a bit when I remember it. It was around that time that I broke up with my girlfriend and also saw my best friend leave this country. My health never recovered completely: I've lost my apetite and everyone who sees me says I'm too thin. Last week I had to go through another surgery to replace a missing tooth. It wasn't painful but I had many restrictions diet-wise so I'm even thinner now. I don't feel sick and the dentist said I recovered just fine, but I think all the things that happened to me have left scars.
My emotions are a complete mess as well. I often experience negative peaks and have few moments of authentic joy. When I'm not in pain or feeling sad, I'm dull, but sometimes I start crying for no apparent reason.
These past few days I started having suicidal thoughts again. It's easier to keep them away now, but I also feel very insecure about myself and feel like my life's meaningless and worthless. I'm disgusted about myself and can't stand being alone but I'm also having a very hard time going out with people because I feel like I don't fit in. I've become extremely self-aware and often regret things right after doing them.
I'm also constantly falling in and out of love, which upsets me. I would like to feel emotionally stable for a while again.
Well.
I suppose I just wanted to let this out. I know my issues aren't as bad as they could be- I mean, I'm healthy, my parents have been very patient with me and my friends always try to cheer me up. But it's still unpleasant. I guess I would like to be normal...
Until this year came along. My first big crisis came from having my wisdom teeth removed. The pain I felt in the surgery was the most intense pain I've ever felt and it still shakes me a bit when I remember it. It was around that time that I broke up with my girlfriend and also saw my best friend leave this country. My health never recovered completely: I've lost my apetite and everyone who sees me says I'm too thin. Last week I had to go through another surgery to replace a missing tooth. It wasn't painful but I had many restrictions diet-wise so I'm even thinner now. I don't feel sick and the dentist said I recovered just fine, but I think all the things that happened to me have left scars.
My emotions are a complete mess as well. I often experience negative peaks and have few moments of authentic joy. When I'm not in pain or feeling sad, I'm dull, but sometimes I start crying for no apparent reason.
These past few days I started having suicidal thoughts again. It's easier to keep them away now, but I also feel very insecure about myself and feel like my life's meaningless and worthless. I'm disgusted about myself and can't stand being alone but I'm also having a very hard time going out with people because I feel like I don't fit in. I've become extremely self-aware and often regret things right after doing them.
I'm also constantly falling in and out of love, which upsets me. I would like to feel emotionally stable for a while again.
Well.
I suppose I just wanted to let this out. I know my issues aren't as bad as they could be- I mean, I'm healthy, my parents have been very patient with me and my friends always try to cheer me up. But it's still unpleasant. I guess I would like to be normal...
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